So, yesterday I had an acute care placement where I shadowed an anaesthetist for a few hours. I got to watch some surgeries and put some patient under sedation. It was an interesting afternoon. Today I had my final physical exam assessment for the year. It went better than I thought and it means that I can focus on exams! 2.5 weeks to go then I’m on two months holiday and off to have a white Christmas! But, more on that soon.
Exams are very stressful right now. I was lucky enough to have one of my exams moved to a different date as an alternate sitting. It has really lifted a lot of the stress away! It means I only have two exams to focus on. My first exam is already done. It was on the first day of exams at 8.30 am and it was a nightmare! I’m really not sure how well I am going to perform in that course. It was Neuroscience. Neuroscience is interesting and how my lecturer taught it with drawings was different, but it also really needed accompanying notes. It’s hard to take a drawing which is essentially my lecturers interpretation, and then find the corresponding information in textbooks. I always struggled with that. I am a visual learner but this course was too much visual information. I should get through it but probably only just. It’s all I want right now. This semester has been brutal and all I want to do is get through it so I don’t destroy my chance of getting into Medicine next year. That’s all I keep thinking about. Eye on the prize. I made a new desktop background to keep me motivated.
I failed an exam. A 15% exam. When I mean fail, I don’t mean just missed out on a pass. I mean I bombed an exam. That’s never happened to me before. Ever. I’m giving myself credit though because I’m not falling apart. I’m not ok about it but I am still ok. I think that’s some kind of progress, right?
I’m spending my Saturday listening to Joni Michell, drinking coffee with Dusk Study Aromatherapy oil burning while I try to write my Medical School Appliaction. Do you like the pink Gerberas my bought me?
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