Year one of Medicine ended without a hitch. I survived exams and have successfully started year two. More on that later.
Right now this is a post to say I’m back and that I had quite a big adventure and went to Canada and the USA. When I say USA I mean New York and Washington. There is will be a post on that too. I will leave you with this for now photo I took on the Whistler peak.
So, yesterday I had an acute care placement where I shadowed an anaesthetist for a few hours. I got to watch some surgeries and put some patient under sedation. It was an interesting afternoon. Today I had my final physical exam assessment for the year. It went better than I thought and it means that I can focus on exams! 2.5 weeks to go then I’m on two months holiday and off to have a white Christmas! But, more on that soon.
Tomorrow it will be three weeks until final exams. While my entire class is under the impression I am a mastermind who is on top of everything, I am actually quite scared. I am not in panic mode yet, that will probably come at the end of next week, but I am more unsure approaching these exams than last semester’s. A classmate told me I probably need to take break, whether it was a day, or an afternoon, I need to do something that wasn’t study. So, tonight I did that. I came home, had a long shower, painted my toe nails, looked up inspiring things while drinking a class of red. The only Med related thing I did was write a timetable for tomorrow. Now I am relaxed and prepared for tomorrow. I think I will keep Sunday nights free from now on up until exams. That should keep stress away. For now, bring on the next three weeks!
I’m not going to lie, there are a lot of unanswered questions and much worrying when you are about to move interstate and begin medicine. Saturday was the day that all the worrying, anxiety, and nervousness decided to sink in. I felt like I was going crazy! My mum took me shopping as a bit of therapy and it definitely worked. I will give you a run down of some of the things that are occupying my thoughts of late. Continue reading
I’ve started to create a wishlist for med school because… well, because I can. While I have two months until I leave, I am very excited. So, I am going to waste my free time doing stuff like this.
Firstly, a Daniel Wellington Watch. It’s been on my wishlist for quite some time.
A purple stethoscope just for me. Or even just this great Cardio one.
Apparently I’ve read by some med students in America that nappy (diaper) bags are great because they fit everything.
Or, possibly a Cambridge Satchel.
Kikki-K A5 Daily Planner in black.
Great Highlighters for all my studies (according to Tumblr).
Also, amazing pens (Also, according to Tumblr).
Shoes for the clinic and hospital.
Last but not least, a new computer.
That’s not much, right?
I haven’t written a post in quite some time. It’s definitely been on my mind. I’ve really wanted to write something. But I have felt like I would not be able to sit still long enough to write one. Tonight, I can definitely sit still. Here’s why.
When I came back from my pre-med program, I had to sit three exams from the previous semester. One exam went fine, two did not which meant I actually failed two courses. Because of that, I’ve been trying to figure out how I can graduate this year and start med next year. There has been a lot of talk over the last few weeks from many people in the uni about how I might be able to still graduate, but this evening I received an email from my course convenor saying that whether I stay in my current degree, or change to a different one, I would still need to come back next semester and complete two more courses. So, right now I am sitting still at my desk because it suddenly feels like everything has stopped.
For weeks I haven’t been able to concentrate because my mind was running at a hundred kilometers an hour. Even when the possibility of still graduating was on my mind, the thought of moving to Darwin was worrying me, and not having any money and not being able to find a job is something that I can never stop thinking about. I suddenly feel that my mind has stopped. It’s just me in the here and now. Not tomorrow, not this summer, or next year. Just now. Just me in the here and now.
Thank, fuck.
For weeks
Exams are very stressful right now. I was lucky enough to have one of my exams moved to a different date as an alternate sitting. It has really lifted a lot of the stress away! It means I only have two exams to focus on. My first exam is already done. It was on the first day of exams at 8.30 am and it was a nightmare! I’m really not sure how well I am going to perform in that course. It was Neuroscience. Neuroscience is interesting and how my lecturer taught it with drawings was different, but it also really needed accompanying notes. It’s hard to take a drawing which is essentially my lecturers interpretation, and then find the corresponding information in textbooks. I always struggled with that. I am a visual learner but this course was too much visual information. I should get through it but probably only just. It’s all I want right now. This semester has been brutal and all I want to do is get through it so I don’t destroy my chance of getting into Medicine next year. That’s all I keep thinking about. Eye on the prize. I made a new desktop background to keep me motivated.
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